Away from me: Where am I?

I have never really experienced a fierce battle between my body and my spirit. These past days I did. It was a replica of the Hiroshima devastation. First, it started like what I likened to the the "non-dialogable negotiation between US and Iraq". That just before the war broke out. I was feeling alot of detachment of me from me and the reasons, I do(n't) know.

Loads of events could have piled up to make me feel this way, the major of them anyone can guess.

1: I have not seen my dearest one in 4 weeks;
2: We both work in Lagos
3: She is preparing for ACCA;
4: Just got a new Job; better that her former and even mine right now
5: Called her but won't pick up until after about 16 to 69 attempts;
6: When she picks, I get words like:
"I have been studying"
"I am out in the park, call back"
"I am sleeping i need to wake early"
"it's too early to call me at 6:30am"
7: Our Q&A:
me: When will i see you?
her: gone till december. (and her birthday is 9th December)
me: Can we make a day out?
her: NO!!! (but she finds time to attend another friend's party)
me: Well, I wanna tell you that....
her: (cuts in)Call me back.... And the phone disengages!!!


I just felt torn apart. then @ work with my boss, our Q&A goes like:
boss: we have a new project blah. blah, blah... How soon can you finish?
me: COB tomorrow;
boss: great!!! I know i can count on you.

then time elapses......

boss: How far?
me: ehn... ehn... my laptop has been slow
boss: (scratches his head) We are screwded you know? i made promises to clients ............
me: I am sorry. give me today.
boss: ok

the project was finished.

During introspection.....

boss: Chief, your codes look unlike your thought
me: new ways sir. Actually I am....
boss: (cuts in) see me in the lounge. Immediately

then he suspected that i was far from within me. Thank God we have been friends. I could seen the other side of him.

I am missing this gal. I hope nothing is wrong. I'll call her now. I'll update this once i return